INSECURITIES CAUSED BY ME

OK SO RIGHT RECENTLY I CAUSED MY SELF SOME PROBLEMS, AND IN THE LINE OF WORK THAT I'M IN. WHAT I DO ON MY PERSONAL TIME.. CAN LEAK OVER INTO MY WORK LIFE. SO ANYWAY I RAN INTO A BIT OF TROUBLE WITH THE "LONG ARM OF THE LAW!!", IN THE FORM OF A DWI... THATS DRIVING WHILE IMPARIED FOR YOU THAT MIGHT NOT KNO, AND LIKE MY GRAND MOTHER ALWAYS TOLD ME.. "TROUBLE IS EASY TO GET INTO AND HARD AS HELL TO GET OUT", I'M FINALLY FINDIN OUT THAT IT IS VERY MUCH SO TRUE. SO NOW I'M CONFINED TO A 564 FT SPACE FOR 45 DAYS. I BEEN HERE NOW FOR 20SUMIN ODD DAYS AND I HAVE BEEN AWAY BEFORE FOR 6 MONTHS, BUT THAT WAS FOR SUMIN POSITIVE.... THE WORST PART ABOUT THIS 45DAYS IS I JUS GOT BACK FROM DOIN 5MTHS.. WHICH WAS FOR A POSITIVE CAUSE... HOME FOR 2 TO 3 WEEKS, CATCH THE DWI CHAGRE AND NOW I'M AWAY FOR SUMIN NEGATIVE... AND THIS SH!T IS STARTIN TO SUCK, LIKE REALLY... LIKE I'M BUGGIN OUT ON THE LOW THO.... CAN'T LET ANYONE AROUND ME KNO MY THOUGHTS... I GOTTA GET RIGHT.. FEELING LIKE I STARTED WITH A FINISH AND BEGAN WITH AN ENDIN.. BECAUSE I'M ONE TO BELIEVE EVERYTHING IS WRITTEN... SO WHAT'S TO BE WILL BE.. REGARDLESS OF WHAT.. NO MATTER HOW LONG YOU TRY TO PROLONG IT AND AVOID IT... IT WILL COME IN SOME FORM.. SOONER OR LATER AND IN MY CASE I'M GRATEFUL IT CAME SOONER THAN LATER.. BUT I'M TRYIN TO REMAIN OPEN MINDED AND SEE THE POSITIVE IN IT ALL... I CANT CALL IT... NOT EVEN GO REREAD THIS FOR MISTAKES.. FUK IT...